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Little Toes In The Snow
Wasatch Woman, Nov Dec 2007

It was December 1968 and one of those days that stands out from the other three hundred and sixty-five. Our family had piled into the brown station wagon to head from the sun-drenched shores to a cold and mysterious location called "the mountains." Up to that point in my life, I'd only seen the tall rugged slopes in picture books. I remembered with excitement that they were dotted with Christmas trees, one beautiful triangle of green after another.

My big sisters were less excited than my older brother and I. They slid over in their seats and sullenly stared out the windows. Ricky was five years old and I was three. Just the thought of a family adventure had us anxiously jumping up and down in our seats, poking each other in the ribs, and fogging up the car windows with our breath.

As soon as we spotted Dad approaching the car, we fell silent. The next few moments were critical. If the car started, it was a good omen and we'd be on our way. But heaven help us if it didn't. Dad opened the driver's side door, scooted across the crinkled vinyl upholstery, and adjusted the rear-view mirror. My mom was the last to come aboard. She opened the front passenger door and ducked low, using one hand to hold her beehive hairdo in place. I knew what was in the brown bag she carried in her other hand: oranges, bananas, and apples. (We never took a family trip without them or peanut butter and jelly sandwiches.) The moment before my father turned the ignition was always a stressful one. We'd hold our breaths, cross our fingers, and send telepathic messages to the wagon nicknamed "Brownie," begging her to play along. But, even if the ol' girl started, we knew there was at least one more daunting obstacle ahead of us before we could finally exhale. For some reason, Brownie didn't like the corner of Carthage and Brunswick. No matter how much my dad warmed her up, she'd stall right in the middle of the intersection, refusing to budge. The more he tried to coerce her to cross the intersection, the harder she'd chortle, cough, and hold her ground. Hearing Dad's message that Brownie had flooded seemed as serious as the message Noah had given thousands of years ago.

But on this day, Brownie must have wanted an adventure too. When Dad turned the key, she cleared her throat and started her engine. We pulled away from the curb, glided across the infamous intersection, and then sashayed our way to the highway. I happily watched the landscape change and eventually rocked to sleep. Two hours later, Linda nudged me awake and pointed outside. I remember pressing my nose against the pane and taking my first look at steep mountains, dark emerald green pine trees, and mounds of white billowing powder that my other sister, Yvonne, said was "snow." We had coats on, but none of the other winter-weather gear. We didn't need mittens, boots, or scarves at home. We jumped out of the wagon and into the snow. The next few minutes were magical. My brother and sisters ran around the trees, dodging each other's snowballs, and calling out to each other. I tried to keep up, but the snow was as high as my knees. I decided to stay put and play with the soft, moldable snow myself. I barely noticed the chill of the snow as I happily plunged in one foot after another. But soon I felt an unfamiliar burning in my shoes. "Mommy," I called out. "My feet hurt!" She called for me to come back to the car. "It's the snow, Honey, it's freezing your toes like ice." Now, I knew that my mom was smart. She knew how to cook, drive, read, and how to turn on the television. But, I was sure she was wrong. That beautiful snow couldn't be the culprit. I reached down and touched my cold, wet, dark shoes and a small light bulb went off. "Mom," I explained, "It's not the snow's fault, it's my shoes. They're making my feet hurt and I want to take them off!" She tried to change my mind. But, I sat down and pulled the wet shoes off, leaving red socks covering my tiny feet. And, I remember vividly thinking that now that the wet shoes were off, I would be able to play in the snow in my socks without a concern. But, within moments the burning cold came back.

My mom tried again to reason with me and called me back to the car. But, another light bulb had gone off in my three-year old mind. If it wasn't the shoes, it must be the socks that cause the cold! So, I pulled them off too and stepped into the snow with my toes spread wide. It didn't take long for the cold to cut through the already tender skin. I was bewildered and began to cry at the pain and the frustration of it all. Mom stepped out in the snow and carried me back to the warm car. My family still laughs at what happened forty years ago. But, stories like this happen everyday. We may not be three years old, but we all make mistaken conclusions based on our limited knowledge. It's a good thing that we can find comfort in the words of Phyllis Theroux. She wrote in Night Lights, "mistakes are the usual bridge between inexperience and wisdom." Or, as John Powell once wrote, "The only real mistake is the one from which we learn nothing."

 
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